My World

I truly want to thank my family and friends for wishing me a Happy 24th Birthday . It has been such a sweet one.  From all the messages, gifts, special writings <3  and cards . You have all made me feel so special. My Dad sent me my favorite Large Birthday Cupcake from New York. Something he has done every year. My team and I are in Wyoming and they are having a dinner for me tonight. i have truly enjoyed this day . I want to thank all of my friends who remembered and all the ones who didn’t …………………………with lv lexxi  

I would like to thank each and every person who has supported me. It has not been an easy road . Many of you have been with me through my best times and my worst . you have seen me grow into the man that I am today. I am so proud of myself and proud of each one of you . I have my own special relationships with each of you . You will always be my friend. I have impacted your lives one way or another. It is time for me to impact others in a special way and record stories about everyday people. this is something I have always wanted to do. You are all beautiful people and I have always said that. i have no hard feelings against anyone and will take what you have taught me and apply it in my life. my story has been a great one but my story nor my book is over but this chapter is…………. Most of you have been following my writings since I first began making them public .For the ones that have been giving me feedback, I truly thank you from the bottom of my heart.Writings were the only way I could truly express my thoughts freely. You have inspired me to one day publish a book…… As I am writing this , I am thinking about my childhood, teen years and very early adulthood. I am holding the significant keys which has unlocked the emotions that are not set in stone, but are forever burned upon my eyes. Remember those words , for they are the words that just ran through my head and traveled through my heart. I love you all always .The memories I have created , I will truly  hold dear to my heart forever and ever …………… Words of my own 

                           Good Bye *Closes Chapter*

As I pack up , I am looking around at the few things I am taking with me. My Uncle and I went out shopping for new clothes . I got a tone of them but cannot take them all. It is Ironic that my room has a fire place but it has never been used. It has been nearly two years since I have called this place home. It has been nearly two years since I left Tampa to spend two weeks here. When I first got here I fell in love with it and I fell in love with the people. The people here are so kind and the days are long a warm and the nights silent a cool. I look at the chair  at which I sit in a read each day. I know that taking on this mission is opening up a new chapter of my life. Who knows what I may find out there in that big ole world that we call home. Many things have happened in this very room. I will miss my two cousins barging in my room the most. we would always have sleep overs lol . It always made me feel better and i can hear our laughter play through my head. It runs through like an old record never breaking it’s silence. My nephew would get scared at night and come in my room. I would protect him and let him know that everything would be ok. I am so proud at the way I was able to take care of him. He is my heart and my joy. Soon after that my niece came and she warmed my heart always making me smile. Those kids taught me how to be an adult. Now it is time for me to leave this place and view the world. This is something that ive  have always wanted to do. Overall this is a great experience and opportunity. Although it is sad to leave I know I have to……….. This chapter was a growing chapter . I am able to peacefully close it….. I will miss my Family and friends………I love each and everyone of you . Goodbye………………………… ALD………with LV……

To think I may never see your eyes, To think I may never hear your voice . It makes it one of the difficult things I could never face. I can Hardly look at you because every time I do , Pain reads across my face and sorrow dwell within my eyes.

Note : something short and random 

Date written: Undisclosed

Time has given up on us my darling. I wish it could linger a bit more but the vessel of time is worn out. I love you with all of my heart. Every piece of you is like an interesting piece of what I have learnt about you. I have tried to get you to love me. You have touched bases on it once, twice, three times and more………….. I wish I had this moment always but I do not. I can’t make you love me …. I can’t make your heart feel something it won’t . Your voice sings to me every night and your soul grabs me throughout the day. The thought of you makes me melt. If only I could get the voices to leave and my ears to not hear any lies. I can’t make you love me if you don’t.  You can’t make your heart feel something it don’t. I can lay down my heart and feel the power but you won’t. I can’t make you love me if you don’t. I can close my eyes and think of you. I can surrender and give up my fight but it won’t change the love you do not feel for me. Because I can’t make you love. No use in trying to make you……………… If you really don’t……………………………… words of Alexander

This piece was written as a inspiration by the song: I can’t make you love me by: Bonnie Raitt later remade by tank……….. I was thinking one night about a person and how much I felt for them. I soon realized that I really could not make them love me. I hope this is a lesson to others. The words are so true.

Date written: Undisclosed 

I wish often times that I would have told you how I felt about you. Now I’m looking at you as time has passed, Time has swiftly taken you away from me and I am left within your memory. I will always love you. I know that deep down somewhere you love me also. When you first expressed your love for me, I was young and afraid. I was afraid of the stones that where going to be thrown at us. No matter how different our paths of life are, I will always love you. I will always hear your voice in my head like the cries of the night and that yawns of the day. One day we will meet again and you will be able to love me. I never knew it until now at this time, at this moment. You mean so much to me that I would do anything for you; I would ever give my heart away just so that yours can beat. Now the time has come for me to go. Time came so quickly but it has been a true constant all along. I must leave soon .I know somewhere deep down, you love me too…………………. Alexander

Note: I wrote this some time ago now . I was speaking to a professor one day and he was having a conversation about *love and regrets * I went home that night and wrote out a few words and the next morning I filled in between the words . The sentence is : I often told you , I will Love you until my Heat leaves me . With this piece you must read in between the lines. treat it as a mystery . It is not what it seems to be.

This is a Matter of Justice. Lets put this monster behind bars and punish him to the fullest extent of the law for the horrible hate crime that he committed. Lets get some justice and peace for the Martin family. Put Mr. Zimmerman in prison .

I been seeing on the news about Trayvon for a little while now. He was a young black boy who was shot walking through a neighborhood. the watch captain followed him . there is alot of circumstantial evidence  that points directly to his shooter (Zimmerman). There is even a recorded tape of him admitting to the dispatcher that he was following Trayvon. It is also a witness , Trayvon’s girlfriend was on the phone with him at the time of the shooting.This is a Classic example of a hate crime . I am outraged and pissed at the justice system. What kind of justice system do we have? What type of world to we live in? We live in a world that a person can follow a young human based on stereotypes and suspicion. We as American need to change are way of thinking. We as a nation have the wrong definition of justice. This could of been anyone of our young children . Just because he was black , he was shot . i believe it is a racist thing and America is still living in racial times. It has been over a month since his death and no arrest has been made in this case. This is a slap in the face to the people that worked so hard to make this world a better place. i am so proud of the people who are standing up and not letting this slide. My mother and i had a conversation and she reminds me all the time about if it was not for her people then this country would not be what it is today. she is upset and i am proud of that side of my people . I have nephews and it could of been either one of them as well. i have friends and it could of been them. i give all of my support to The people and his family . their hearts must be heavy . On hoodie day , I will wear a hoddie in support of him and I will post it on tumblr to show my support to his friends and family . Not sure what day it is but i will find out. We all must take a stand for this child in order to take care of our own. Zimmerman should be punished to the fullest extent of the law . I hope justice comes to these people . how could we sit and act as if we dont care. That person could of easily been YOU.